Sometimes I feel like I am an idiot. Sometimes I get overconfident. I just need to be the middle of those..
Maybe is this bc of .. what?
Met a girl tonight, randomly from dating app.
She was nice. She is 4 yrs younger than me, just pretty.
I don't know.. I don't know what to do.
Broke up with gf. She wanted to marry me. I hesitated.
She left me. I feel alone and lonely a little.
Maybe I can stand through it.
But, what do I want to achieve after all this? I don't know..
I want to be connected to people, but when I am, I don't want to anymore sometimes.
I just want only 1 person who is really good.
Is it so difficult asking?
Sometimes I feel like drinking.
I quit drinking 5 years ago, but still it comes to me and seduces me with its charm.
I don't know some better way to alleviate my lonliness or pain without sacrificing my needs..