Every time I see others drawing easily, I feel as if I could try it too, and then nothing happens...
If you're not happy, go for a walk. The world is so big, the scenery is beautiful and there are many opportunities. When the sun shines through the woods and reflects a gorgeous rainbow, you will be amazed at the beauty of life.
In fact, the definitions of "good guys" and "bad guys" are too narrow. The complexity of human nature far exceeds the definition of good and bad.